#morningmotivation #morningthoughts God said, no to the house.. He said, no to the dude I thought I really liked.. He said, no to my lose weight fast solution.. Just a whole bunch of no this morning and I REALLY didn't like it.
But, they each came with WAIT. If you know anything about me, I am a slightly impatient person. If I like it and I have the means to get or do it (after everything is paid for and taken care of) it's gotten or done.
I have been with the wrong men..due to impatience.. I have made the wrong friends...due to impatience.. I have accepted damaging things in my life due to..impatience
Then when these things don't work out...I question my self worth and my ability to make good decisions..
Playing the blame game of..it's my parents fault.. It's my exes fault.. It's my bosses fault.. It's my children's fault..
When in reality..I moved..when I should have stayed still.
I spent..when I should have saved.
I smashed and got in a relationship..when they should have just been a one night stand.
I took a job out of desperation..when I should have waited on the best job to fit my skills and pay.
My parents no longer govern how I live my life..seeking therapy and working on that dysfunctional relationship..forgiving them for being human and making mistakes. Healing my inner child because adult tantrums will not allow you to be successful in life or relationships.
So, my word now is to wait. While I wait..fast and pray. I need to be still..mentally. Everything, I need and want will be revealed to me. At all costs, protect my energy.
To all those who loved and lost me..I understand you realize it now...but I am not going backwards. Do better in your next relationship and I wish you well
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