Forbidden

You ever look at somebody and think..we could never be. Although you look daymn good on top of me..this love is only temporary.

In the confines of this space, where we are looking at each other face to face, this is my safe space.

Once our clothes are back on and we go to our separate homes..reality hits.

Our ideals don’t fit.

Our morals and values are the same.

Yet, we move through life as opposites and not in a good way.

In the way where we are set in our ways, unmovable on life events, finances, the mechanics of a relationship and vulnerability.

We have become so comfortable in being alone, we can go days with no contact at all.

Our time is precious.

Our peace is non negotiable.

Our boundaries concrete.

I am a mom, you don’t want kids.

You are an entrepreneur and I choose to work for someone else.

I have no desire to conform. Neither do you.

Compromising for the sake of compromising is something we don’t do.

We want to keep our individuality.

Even though when we are together we allow ourselves to blend.

Our futures are not aligned and that is perfectly fine.

In that room though.

When we touch, none of that matters.

We share our hopes and dreams.

Talk about things we have achieved.

Discuss our fears and favorite memories.

In that room, we understand the difference between love and being in love.

Chemistry is just a piece of what you need for relationship longevity.

We have a mutual understanding.

You can’t deny the intense feelings when we look in each other’s eyes though.

Maybe it’s the fact that we will never be, that makes it electric.

Something that only you and I share.

In that moment.

In that room.

While I am looking at you and you are looking at me.

There is not a sadness when I leave.

The memories are always happy.

Even though we could never be. You look daymn good on top of me. Look me in my eyes and tell me you love every part of me and I’ll do the same.

Outside this room though.

If look me in my eyes..you will know..it won’t always be this way.

Eventually, you will find the one you always have eyes for.

When your eyes meet mine, all we will see is that closed door.