Happy New Year!
Today, I went live with my website. I posted it on Facebook and I got one like, no one even went to the page to check it out. So, that was kinda depressing. However, if I was writing this blog for the likes, today would have been the first and the last day I did this. But, this blog is for me..its a personal journey to self love that includes my adventures in dating, finding a common ground with the ex, managing four children (all girls, I might add), writing a book, performing at open mics, working in a field that triggers me everyday, living paycheck to paycheck and finally learning to take time out for me.
All of these tasks come with learning how to organize your time, understanding some days you may fail (and that is okay), learning mom guilt is real and that your past may have shaped you, but it does not define you. My goal is to post at least once a week about what is going on in my life and the personal challenge that I am working through for that month.
This blog will also contain funny stories of my dating life. In May of last year, I told myself I was going to actively start dating. I thought it was time to get out there and see who wanted to find me. Clearly, everybody wants to find me...no one is serious about dating me. But, I still registered for every online dating site that was recommended. So, I will share with you my ups and downs in the dating game. Also, I will let you know what I learned from each experience.
At the end of last year, there were two questions posed to me which were the driving force for actually making this site public. The first one was: Who are you without your children?
This one really hit home, because I did not have an answer. My entire life, all I ever wanted was to be a great mother. So, to think of who I am outside of that...I really didn't know. But, I am learning. The second question hit harder: Who were you before all the pain you have dealt with in your life? The saddest thing is, I don't remember. When you have always lived with pain, it becomes a security blanket as you go through life. Sometimes, you are uncomfortable even being in an environment that does not have the promise of pain.
These questions got me thinking, the thinking lead to me writing and the writing lead to the poems and journal entries you see on this page. I hope sharing some of my story will help you be willing to share yours.
Speak your truth and Be Free!
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