Pray..

How do you pray?

Now that you’re gone, I don’t know what to say

I get on my knees, close my eyes and bow my head

Trying to think of every word you said

Forcing myself to recite it just right, so it will cover my family

I know to ask for forgiveness and thank him for what he has done

But, nothing comes

Trying to put together words to help him understand what I need

He is all knowing right, so tell me again why I have to be specific when I pray

He should know already what I am going to say

Why don’t I just cosign that

Yet, I am trying to get him to show me the playbook

I am clearly not on his plan..because this life is starting to make me feel less than

They keep telling me to pray

Even though I read the Bible back and forth

I used to know scriptures like the back of my hand

Since my spiritual crisis its hard to put together sentences

I will just say forgive me for my sins

And Amen

That should cover me in the end right?

No, really…How do you pray?

Now that you are gone, I really don’t know what to say.

I really would like for him to answer why he took you away in the first place

Thing is, he will probably never say

So..I will just talk to you and give you insight on the mental struggles I have everyday

And maybe you can talk him into giving me some grace from all this pain

I would just like to be happy, instead of lying to people and telling them I am okay

I’m just gone start with The Lords prayer and find my way..

Hopefully, that will be enough